confused.

Many thoughts ran in my mind today. There are some things that I just don't know what to do about. Time is flying away. It waits for no one. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ is one area that I want to pursue and continue to do well in but I started it too late. Many who are in my age have already excelled in this area that I've just started. I am just a beginner. The feeling that I am experiencing now? Regrets and maybe a bit of humiliation. Why? Why do my school not have this? Maybe I should not continue any further in this area anymore and instead focus on other areas such as my studies and piano.I also think that I have not enough time for that area anyway. Or maybe I do have time for it if I make time for it? I DON'T KNOW. I am very confused. Personally, I feel that even if I do continue in that area, I also won't go far any sooner. There are many much more better _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
Anyway, by next year, I would be piled with even more homework and may not even have the time to think about it. But when i see the _ _ _ _, i really can't help but to think that I should continue to learn to _ _ _ _. Ah yah. Anyway, really really confused. but I know that I just had to leave all these matters to the Lord because I know that He has the best plan for me.